Happy Birthday to our son

Happy Birthday Martin Jr.
This is now the sixth birthday you missed with our son.
I know he is missing you!
I think me standing there singing happy birthday to him was not how he wanted to start his 17th year, but he did let me give him a kiss on the cheek something I haven't been able to do for years now so that was great for me not so much for him as he promptly wiped it off.
I got him a pair of shoes, well I gave him the money and he bought them. I couldn't afford them but he always seems to get screwed on his birthday and I thought it would be better to give him something than the usual wait until I get my income tax check. So I am not going to pay a few bills on time this month but it is so worth it. I know he wishes you were here as do I but we will do the birthday call later today after he gets home from school. You have missed so much so many memories that you will never get back but I am praying that for his 18th birthday we will be together as a family. I also want to thank you for giving me the best son a mother could ever want he is perfect in every way I love you for giving him to me and I love him for being who he is. He has matured so much since this journey has started and I see so much of you in him that is one thing that helps me get through this mess. I love you and I know you wish you could be here with him today and he knows this also.
I love you and miss you so much.