Waiting

Waiting is so hard
It can drive a sane person mad
So imagine what it does to me
At times I think this will never end
Other times I think my body will not make it to the end of the wait

I have waited five and a half years
racing against this horrible disease that is going to take me
I thought I might get you back before it got me
But from what the doctors are saying that might not be the way it works out.
I can not imagine losing whats left of my life here alone waiting

Waiting to die is horrible
Waiting to live is worse
Waiting for the one you love to come home is unexplainable

I am tired of waiting
I want whats left of my life to be spent with you here helping me through this
I don't want to die waiting.

Waiting is like wasting away
I don't want to waste away alone
I am tired of waiting on the government
I am tired of waiting on them to give me what should never have been taken from me to begin with
I am tired of waiting on old men who have no idea what real life is like to make up their minds

I am tired of waiting to die
I am tired of fighting things I cant see touch or hear
I am tired of waiting on things and others to make choices that will effect our lives.

I am so tired of waiting