Feeling better

Its taken a few long days but I am getting to a better place
physically, mentally and spiritually.
I have long questioned God's plan for me,
My life seems to be one hardship after another
Does he really think I am that strong?
People say God doesn't make mistakes and I for sure am not going to say it,
I just wonder
How strong he made me because I sure don't feel strong never have EVER
Yet its one thing after another
I know his love and I know he always takes care of my needs in the end but
I am so tired of trying to be strong I feel weak
I am so tired of fighting
Especially things I cant see or understand
Yet I have to keep fighting for the sake of my kids, husband and my sanity.
I pray this all of this will stop
I want my family back my sanity (not much to begin with) back
I want a day at least one day just to sit and not worry about all of these things
People say be careful of what you ask for but I am asking

I love you and miss you more today than I did yesterday
Soon we will be together!
Love you