Five year Anniversary

Normally someone would say happy anniversary
I will not say that for this is such a sad day
A day that I will never forget
It has been five years now
Five years that I wake up with out you beside me
Five years that I drink my morning coffee alone
Five years that I cant make dinner for you
Five years that I don't have my best friend to come home to after a hard day
Five years that I don't lay down at night feeling the warmth of your body next to mine

Five years is a long time to be without the one you love
Five years is a long time to be away from your best friend
Five years is a long time to sleep alone
Five years is a very long time to wonder if you are ok down there
Five years is a long time to be without your husband or wife in your case
Five years is too long to be away from our kids.

What have you miss in five years
You have missed so much
Things that you can never get back
Like seeing our son win his track meets and make varsity track in his freshmen year
Watching him play high school football for the first time
See him asked to the junior prom his freshman year seeing him in his tuxedo
Watching our daughter play her first sport basketball
See her scared to play then only to be the best on her team
Watch her play volleyball
See when she was awarded the presidential award for most improved
Watching her grow into a young woman.
Or see her so excited to start middle school

You have missed so much and I am sorry for you and the kids for all that you have missed
I know we will be together again, I only hope its not another five years!
So on this five year anniversary
I will lay down once again without you
I will lie down and think of you
And I will wake tomorrow alone without you
I will not ever stop loving you and wanting you though!

I love you