Sick

You made me smile today
I dont smile very often anymore but you made me smile
Usually when I speak to you I just feel so alone.

I know this has changed you
Anytime you hear my voice and know I am sick then ask why I am not taking medication,
You who never takes anything
You who always thought I was taking too much medication
Telling me to take medication.

I have become like wonder woman I dont need anything for pain, asthma,hernia,hepititis,headaches
What was that song I am woman hear me roar.
Too funny
I have become so strong I dont need anything
I dont need to numb my body or my mind I can deal with it all

You know I am just bullshitting right
I can't take meds and work or I will not be able to do the work
And you know how bad I want to be hired by this company.
But you need not worry I will be ok
I told you I am too angry and fought too hard to get you back to let something like dying block my way.

I love you and miss you
I wish you were here to take care of me
You have always been so kind and caring when I was sick
I miss that so much (not being sick)
You always made sure I had anything I needed.
I also remember you before my gallbladder surgery
I remember right before they put me to sleep you had a tear running down your face
You were so scared something was going to happen to me
But here I am fifteen years later
Still sick
And I need you here to help me.

I love you