A Funk

Today I was in a funk all day
I don't understand why its harder on me right after I come back from a visit with you
than when I haven't seen you for 6 months or so.
I always miss you but it seems that right after a visit its so hard for me to cope.
I laid on the sofa today and watched the Olympics
then even that wasn't enough to keep my mind from wandering back to you.
So I wrapped myself up in a blanket on the sofa and thought about you until sleep took over.
It gets hard for me to watch people living their life when I feel mine has stopped
I know my body is getting older but it seems I haven't lived for the past 5 years
Its like you said its not living its just waiting
And waiting is not living, but without you here I don't want to do anything
I just want you back here with us.
Then I will live again,
Sometimes its hard just to get out of the bed
Not that I want to sleep I just lie their thinking what is the use of getting up
Then one of the kids will come in and give me a reason
Well a reason they need me up
But for me there is not a reason to get up.
They think I am so crabby and I guess I am but how do I get up and greet the day with a smile
I remember a so called friend telling me I need to get on with my life
She said she had a friend I needed to meet
I looked at her like she was nuts
She knew how much in love with you I am yet she wanted me to meet someone new
Needless to say we are not friends any longer she just didn't get it.
I remember the vows I took and I don't remember saying I will love you till you are deported.
I am just tired of feeling so lonely, but you are the only person I that can change that.
So I guess I will be in a funk for some time.
I just want you back
I need you back
I love you